Yesterday, Phantasmagoria's live was aired on internet.
I didn't even hear about THIS FUCKING EVENT until today.
And I missed it all.
For once, I could "attend" one of their show.
But yeah, I missed it all.
I FUCKING MISSED IT ALL!
I DIDN'T EVEN KNEW I WAS STILL THAT OBSESSIVE ABOUT THEM.
I FUCKING WASTED THE SINGLE LAST MOTHER FUCKING CHANCE TO SEE THEM IN "REAL".
DO YOU KNOW HOW SAD AND MAD I AM AT THE SAME TIME?
I WON'T BE ABLE TO SEE THEM ANYMORE.
BECAUSE OF FUCKING RIN.
I REALLY WANNA HANG MYSELF.
DIG OUT MY GUTS 'TILL I DIE IN DEEP PAIN.
But instead, I'm just fucking crying my life...
I really should die. now.
But I'm not like those people who can stop living that easily.